My brother Nathan and his wife Kaitlin are two amazing people. I've always known this. But the past few days I've found myself in complete awe of their wisdom and quiet strength. They've wanted a family since the day they got married. They were so happy this last fall with the news that they were expecting. They were even more thrilled with the news a few months later that they were having a little girl. We had months of buying baby clothes, making baby blankets, talking about names and all of us picturing them being parents. (which is so easy to do) We were all anxiously awaiting May 22nd 2013!! On April 11th 2013, we were all devastated to hear the news that their sweet baby daughter, had died. I cannot imagine hearing those words from your doctor. I cannot imagine that terrible moment. I cannot imagine the strength it must have taken to go home that night to their apartment and see her nursery, her bed and prepare to go to the hospital the next morning to be induced and deliver the baby. I did not sleep that night. I cried and cried. My heart broke for them. It killed me not being there with them. Clark wanted to know what was going on. We explained things to him and he seemed so sad and looked over at Kalvin and said "Is our baby going to die?" My heart broke again. We talked a while more and he seemed to feel better. His concern then was if Jesus knew how to take care of a baby :) I watched my babies sleep and tried not to imagine what I would have done if it had happened to me. Brad and I laid in bed, waiting for a phone call or a text or something. The next day, Brad had to go to school and I spent the day waiting by the phone. I talked to my Mom probably 20 times and Kaitlin's sweet sister, Kelsey forwarded me messages from their Mom, who was in the delivery room with Nathan and Kaitlin. I wasn't there, but everyone seemed so amazed at how calm they both were. That they were handling things so well. That they felt peace and comfort and were an incredible example to the rest of us all falling apart. They had oh so many prayers being said for them in those 24 hours. I probably can account for half. I know the spirit was with them and it was with other family members. I didn't sleep the next night either. Just laid there holding my phone and waiting. The baby was born this morning. They were able to hold her and say goodbye. They said that she was beautiful and perfect and that they know they will see her again one day.